Time after time, newcomers have tried to keep to themselves certain facts about their lives. . . . they have turned to easier methods. . . . But they had not learned enough humility. . . .
- ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 72-73
Humility sounds so much like humiliation, but it really is the ability to look at myself - and honestly accept what I find. I no longer need to be the "smartest" or "dumbest" or any other "est." Finally, it is okay to be me. It is easier for me to accept myself if I share my whole life. If I cannot share in meetings, then I had better have a sponsor - someone with whom I can share those "certain facts" that could lead me back to a drunk, to death. I need to take all the Steps. I need the Fifth Step to learn true humility. Easier methods do not work.
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Sorry I haven't posted yesterday's reflection yet. Bill's dad died the night before last and I needed to talk with him yesterday morning, but I will get it posted soon.
ReplyDeleteI've learned that newcomers aren't the only ones who have difficulty sharing "certain facts"! I have carried some of my secrets at times for too long, causing me unneccesary discomfort! I am reminded that whenever I feel uncomfortable about any person, place, or thing, I need to share it - in a meeting or with a trusted woman in the program!!!