Daily Reflections-April 4

CRYING FOR THE MOON "This very real feeling of inferiority is magnified by her childish sensitivity and it is this state of affairs which generates in her that insatiable, abnormal craving for self-approval and success in the eyes of the world. Still a child, she cries for the moon. And the moon, it seems, won't have her!" - LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 102.

While drinking I seemed to vacillate between feeling totally invisible, and believing I was the center of the universe. Searching for that elusive balance between the two has become a major part of my recovery. The moon I constantly cried for is, in sobriety, rarely full; it shows me instead its many other phases, and there are lessons in them all. True learning has often followed an eclipse, a time of darkness, but with each cycle of my recovery, the light grows stronger and my vision is clearer.